undying love - a drabble

Fred walked slowly through the graveyard. He held a heart shaped balloon in one hand, supporting himself on a cane with the other. His eyes wandered through the familiar headstones, stopping on one he knew perfectly. He slowly dropped to his knees in front of it and began tracing the letters with his fingers, closing his eyes, whispering the words as his hand followed them.

"Abigal Watson
1939-2009
Beloved wife, mother, and friend
She will be missed by all who knew her"

“I love you Abby.” He placed the balloon next to the stone. “Happy Valentines Day.”

it's just one of those things

there are two things in this life i hate. ("heights and falling from them". name that quote and you will be my favourite person ever)

seriously though, how much passion, thought, and energy do you put into your likes and dislikes? if you're like me, probably a lot. i am what they call "passionate". when i like something, i really really like it. music, for example. i literally am surrounded by music 20 out of 24 hours in a day. i revel in it. in many ways, i live for it. conversely, when i don't like something, i utterly despise it. i fume when it's mentioned. take the yankees. i aim a ridiculous amount of my hatred at the yankees. i groan when i hear they win a game. the yankee has been forever ruined for me.

is it exhausting to glide to the highest heights of emotion only to fall to the depths of despair? sometimes. to be emotionally connected to so many things can be tiring. but more than that, it pulls my heart in so many different directions. i so often forget that there's only one thing i should giving my attention and affections to. the world makes it very easy to forget. it gives me entertainment, fun, pleasure. it makes me forget that this life is just a vapor in the wind, a drop of water in an immeasurable sea. vanity, vanity, everything's vanity. there's nothing new under the sun.

i've been feeling like this a lot lately. what is the point? if i'm not doing something that's worthwhile, and will serve a higher purpose, what's the point of doing anything at all? why can't i be serving in haiti? why can't i be a missionary to china? or africa? or a million other places in the world? i was talking to a friend about this and she insightful said "but there's no reason we have to be in another country to make a difference"

it's true. God put me here for a purpose. all i have to do is follow him and i get everlasting life. sounds like a pretty good deal to me.

#bestweekendofever

this weekend started much like any other weekend. i slept in, showered, and got dressed. from that point on it veered in a very different direction than any other weekend. this weekend, kelsey shorey and i were visiting one of our best friends, kara (@{{::heartbeats::}}) at college. and it was a surprise.

the morning didn't start out too well. luke had taken the car that i needed, i spilled tea on myself, and i forgot my camera at home (for which i'm still beating myself up). however, i successfully picked up kelsey and we were off!

we got lost. but since i'm a fast driver, it was ok. we got to Gordon only about 15 minutes later than planned. kara's roommate chelsea, who had helped my plan the weekend, met us and in the parking lot and let us in the dorm. kara was in the phone with her dad in the lounge, so we snuck into her room and made ourselves comfortable. in a few minutes, we heard her coming down the hall, still on the phone. the door opened.

"Hey guys."

what. are you kidding me? seriously? we plan this surprise visit for months, and sneak in here, and all you have to say is "hey guys"?? who spilled?! dang, this is disappointing!

all these thoughts went through my head in about the span of one second. however, my brief disappointment was changed to glee, as kara did a wide eyed double take, and said, "what?!"

we then erupted into laughter.

"umm, dad i think i'm gunna have to call you back. siobhan and kelsey are i my room."

thus began the best weekend of ever. it was amazing. we met people, sang, chilled, danced, ate, texted secrets across the table, and made many memories.

a list of firsts:

-all-nighter!! me and kelsey stayed up all night talking. and we weren't even tired. kara was with us till about 2, but she couldn't handle the awesome that is an all nighter with kelsey shorey and siobhan mclernon.

-watching the sun rise on the highway while I was driving. i've watched the sunrise on the highway plenty of times, but never while i was the driver. after talking all night, we realized we had no gas. so at 6 we moseyed on down to the gas station. which was approximately 5 miles away from the exit. we stressed. but then we got coffee so it was ok.

-dance party! with a bunch of people i don't know. it was fantastic.

-jello shot. don't worry, it was non-alcoholic.

-competing in sing star. kara beat me in "sweet home alabama" (in my defense, i didn't know the song...) and won on "kiss me". twas grand.

-deactivated my facebook. never thought i'd do this.

-got a slave. kelsey is now the "official slave of the year"

-boxed. with boxing gloves. i think it's safe to say i'm the undisputed champion.

i enjoyed every second. i liked everyone i met, my relationships with my friends got deeper, i felt the spirit move, i fellowshiped so much, i beat everyone who tried to arm wrestle me, played guitar, and had so much fun it was probably illegal. i want to transfer. this will definitely go down in the annals of history as the #bestweekendofever

a list of reasons i'm happy right now

-it's friday night. and i'm on the brink of one of the best weekends ever. srsly. i've been looking forward to this weekend forever.

-i survived labs. you read that right. labS. i have two. one thursday afternoon, the next at 8:30 friday morning. it's one of the worst things that's ever happened to me. but i survived.

-i like bio. thus far.

-i got to watch dr horrible on thursday with jesse, efee, liz, and abi. and then i got to play guitar with efee and chazz.

-i had a truly great skype conversation with choco this week. 'twas great.

-i found out that selena gomez is going to be at emerald square mall on feb 13th!!!!!! excuse me while i jig for joy.

-i get to sleep tonight.

-there was a new office episode last night

-i get to watch a new episode of parks tonight

-there aren't as many season of 30 rock as i thought, so it'll be easier to catch up

-dr horrible. it just makes me happy.

-i own all of the glee songs.

-pitchers and catcher report in a few weeks!!

-God loves me

and since i can't top that, i'm done.

frostbitten light

there's something magical and mysterious about about a full moon on a frigid night. the air is crisp and clear, the rays of light from the moon reflect off the snow, giving the scenery an eerie quality. clouds chase each other across a bright night sky, racing to see who will be first to reach the stars. the naked trees shiver as the wind tosses their empty branches. everything is quiet. no words can fully capture the picture of an open field illuminated by a full moon when the air is so cold and clear it feels like you're breathing pureness. no one can quite describe that thrill you get when you see something so profoundly beautiful it takes your breath away. nor is there a camera that can preserve the moment in a way that makes it real. you need to experience, and the experience is divine.

Night and Immortal

Smile like you mean it, cuz andy you're a star
you're back on top, with all the pretty faces
leave the bourbon on the shelf and move away
if you change your mind then i can't stay
losing touch is no joy ride
cuz somebody told me this river is wild
the spaceman is a human
but that's not the world we live in
forget about what i said
because of all these things that i've done
this is your life to tranquilize
cuz under the gun, i had daddy's eyes
who let you go mr brightside?
cuz uncle jonny needs your bones
this is your life, so i can't stay
but for reasons unknown
a crippling blow in a midnight show
will reveal where the white boys dance
sweet talk away the shadowplay
and the glamorous indie rock and roll
remember the dustland fairy tale?
the neon tiger would show you how
everything will be alright,
but ruby, don't take your love to town
or you'll be like romeo and juliet
why do i keep counting
when my list has been an enterlude
the ballad of michael valentine told you
how jenny was a friend of mine
bling (the confessions of a king) was new
and sam's town had an exitlude
goodnight, travel well.

complacency

what happened to the passion

that once rose fiery red

what happened to desire

to see our hunger fed

when did the drive

that we applied

decide to run away

and why are we

content to be

complacent in its stead

where did the purpose go

that helped us once grow

since when is it acceptable to stall

how did we lose resolve

to have this puzzle solved

when did we find our backs against a wall

but how can we rekindle

the once bright burning flame

and why would we reach out

to try to stop its wain

when will we finally wake up

and come to realize

we'll never really see Him

but through a child's eyes