frostbitten light

there's something magical and mysterious about about a full moon on a frigid night. the air is crisp and clear, the rays of light from the moon reflect off the snow, giving the scenery an eerie quality. clouds chase each other across a bright night sky, racing to see who will be first to reach the stars. the naked trees shiver as the wind tosses their empty branches. everything is quiet. no words can fully capture the picture of an open field illuminated by a full moon when the air is so cold and clear it feels like you're breathing pureness. no one can quite describe that thrill you get when you see something so profoundly beautiful it takes your breath away. nor is there a camera that can preserve the moment in a way that makes it real. you need to experience, and the experience is divine.

Night and Immortal

Smile like you mean it, cuz andy you're a star
you're back on top, with all the pretty faces
leave the bourbon on the shelf and move away
if you change your mind then i can't stay
losing touch is no joy ride
cuz somebody told me this river is wild
the spaceman is a human
but that's not the world we live in
forget about what i said
because of all these things that i've done
this is your life to tranquilize
cuz under the gun, i had daddy's eyes
who let you go mr brightside?
cuz uncle jonny needs your bones
this is your life, so i can't stay
but for reasons unknown
a crippling blow in a midnight show
will reveal where the white boys dance
sweet talk away the shadowplay
and the glamorous indie rock and roll
remember the dustland fairy tale?
the neon tiger would show you how
everything will be alright,
but ruby, don't take your love to town
or you'll be like romeo and juliet
why do i keep counting
when my list has been an enterlude
the ballad of michael valentine told you
how jenny was a friend of mine
bling (the confessions of a king) was new
and sam's town had an exitlude
goodnight, travel well.

complacency

what happened to the passion

that once rose fiery red

what happened to desire

to see our hunger fed

when did the drive

that we applied

decide to run away

and why are we

content to be

complacent in its stead

where did the purpose go

that helped us once grow

since when is it acceptable to stall

how did we lose resolve

to have this puzzle solved

when did we find our backs against a wall

but how can we rekindle

the once bright burning flame

and why would we reach out

to try to stop its wain

when will we finally wake up

and come to realize

we'll never really see Him

but through a child's eyes

new year

i don't typically do new years resolutions. even if i do, they last about four hours and twenty three seconds. however, i "recently" (a few minutes ago) "stumbled" (i googled it) upon this resolution: "Resolved, to live with all my might, while I do live."
that i might be able to swing. but as easy as it may sound, living with all your might is anything but. it's hard work. i'd venture to say it's absolutely impossible. after all, you can't possibly make every single second of every single day count for something. besides, even if you could, wouldn't you want to relax every now and then? what's worth putting every ounce of effort i posses into?
"Resolved, to endeavor to obtain for myself as much happiness, in the other world, as I possibly can, with all the power, might, vigor, and vehemence, yea violence, I am capable of, or can bring myself to exert, in any way that can be thought of."

a personal opinion: heavenly happiness > worldly happiness.

Jonathan Edwards agrees.

break here here!!

ok, so break has been here for a while, i just haven't had the motivation actually write about it. so here we go:
break. what we call "three weeks of bliss". and as the name subtly suggests, it's blissful. relaxing, stress-free, chill. it's fun too. like when you get to sleep till 10 everyday. that's fun. and when you accomplish absolutely nothing through the course of an entire day. that's fun. and when you get to eat cookies and chocolate like there's no tomorrow. that's fun. until you have too much. then it's not. but ya know what else is fun?? VISITORS!!! yes my friends, we have people visiting. it's great. my cousins are here right now, and when they leave, my best friends from VA are coming. and we will have fun. not the aforementioned fun. different fun. like staying up all night to watch movies. and going to boston. and going to providence. and going to nyc. and seeing WICKED ON BROADWAY. that's fun.

i like fun.

"F" is for friends who do stuff together
"U" is for you and me
"N" is for anywhere and anytime at all
down here in the deep blue sea

My favourite charlie brown quotes

"i'll give you five good reasons - one, two, three, four, five."
"those are good reasons."

"Of all the charlie browns in the world, you're the charlie browniest"

"get the biggest aluminum tree you can find. maybe paint it pink!"

"THAT'S IT!!"

"good grief."

"you do think i'm beautiful, don't you?....you hesitated. if you thought i was beautiful, you would have answered right away. i know when i've been insulted! i know when i've been insulted!!!"

"do they still make wooden christmas trees?"

"i've killed it. EVERYTHING I TOUCH GETS RUINED!!"

"The innkeepers wife has naturally curly hair."

"...and they were sore afraid."

"i can't memorize these lines so quickly! why should i be put through such agony?"

"i ruined the entire christmas play! everybody hates me!! moses hates me, luke hates me, the apostles hate me! all 50 of 'em!!"

"just send money. how about tens and twenties."

"charlie brown is a blockhead, but he did get a nice tree."

"if you buy two, we'll throw in an autographed picture of king solomon."

"merry christmas charlie brown!!!!"

'tis the season

.....for finals. yes boys and girls, the most wonderful time of the year is here. time for studying, thinking, reading, writing, and cramming till you're blue in the face. it's fun! you get to pull all-nighters, lose any semblance of the social life you once had, and become the most coffee dependent person on the face of the planet. i know this. i'm a college student.

However, in this time of studying and stress, it's nice to take a break (or in my case, many breaks), and remember what the point of all this is: education.

wait. i don't want an education. i want to run away to new york city and be on broadway. but then, if i do that, it's very likely that i'll starve to death, because i don't have the drive or talent to be a singer or an actress. hmmm.

so, maybe all these seemingly pointless and impossible classes *coughCHEMcough* are actually a good thing. maybe studying like crazy will teach me about being more diligent and disciplined. maybe finals will help me later on in life when i actually have to work to live.


or maybe i'll just dance through life. after all, it's more painless when you're brainless.