you know those southwest "wanna get away?" commercials? well lately, i've been feeling a lot like that. something (or things. like, lots of them) goes wrong, and suddenly i'm thinking to myself, hey! what a great time to visit virginia and not come back to massachusetts! ever!!
which is just stupid. because i love my people up here. but sometimes things get so over complicated and situations get to uncomfortably tense and one person says one thing that makes me look at them in an entirely different light. something happens that i didn't want to. something that i wanted to happen doesn't. people disappoint. people fail. people are.......people. and for some reason, this still surprises me after 20 years. people aren't perfect? what? well, i knew most people weren't, but i thought for sure this one person.........
it's a vicious cycle. you put your hope in someone and they will disappoint you. every time. messing up means being human. but it still comes as a shock when MY people mess up. they're my people! they don't mess up! because then i'm affected! and i don't like being affected!
this is true. i've been failed by every person i know in some way or another. for some people, i've been failed in a big way. for others, not as much. but everyone i know has failed me before. and i've failed everyone *i* know. in some way or another.
lesson learned? God is the only thing in this world that makes sense.
Good stuff, sister.
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