in which i deliberately put off chem homework

3 days. that's all i have left.
3 days. and then i'm done with classes. done with chemistry, done with bio, done with MATH!!!

in some ways, this scares me. it feels like only last week i was skipping into fsc, ready for adventure, ready to take on the world, ready to see how this college thing would turn out. and yet, here i am, almost done with my freshman year. how can i feel like such a newb and such a pro at the same time? i suppose it's sophomore complex. you've heard of senioritis, now i give you sophomore complex. as defined by the national dictionary of siobhan, the sophomore complex is "the stage at which a student thinks they have a firm grasp on this school gig, but really have a very long way to go". this is what i feel like. i've been through finals before, i've dealt with registering, i've figured out how to study (but have yet to put my plan into practice), and *BONUS* i've made a few friends. as the new englanders say "i'm all set".

but am i? who knows how and if i'll be able to cope in upcoming years? who knows what strange and life changing events may occur during the time i plan on finishing college? who knows the course i'll be taking after this year?

i sure don't. good thing God does. otherwise i'd be freaking out. and i feel like i'm seeing this everywhere i look. some girls i know at school have completely screwed up their college careers and maybe their lives by not taking this time seriously. they've realized that there comes a point when you have to face your circumstances and take responsibility for your actions. but unfortunately, this generation doesn't understand responsibility. we drink ourselves into oblivion, we celebrate 4/20 like there's no tomorrow, we throw our virginity out the window without a backward glance. live for the moment, right? then suddenly, the moment's over. and then we crave more. we crave until it consumes us. it's not until reality comes and smashes us in the face that we realize there are consequences for our actions. then we have to deal with them. do we face them? do we run? do we give up?

i've been tempted to give up so often this semester. it literally has been a nightmare. 3 extremely hard classes, 2 labs, and seemingly endless tests, quizzes, and homework assignments. finals week is just the icing on the cake. 4 finals (all cumulative, no take-homes) and a lab practical. i can't tell you how many times over the past few months i've thought to myself, 'we're all gunna die anyways so what's the point?' and i can honestly say that nothing would make me happier than to be taken home this very instant. but God has other plans. plans for my future, plans to prosper me, and most important, plans to glorify Him. so as much as going to heaven right now would be GREAT, i have unfinished business down here. God started a good work in me, and He's going to see it to completion, sophomore complex and all.


ps i finished all four seasons of psych. obsessed? just a little.
oh, and word to the wise, don't get into a tv show that has multiple seasons that you MUST see with only a few weeks of school left. i learned the hard way.
but it was so worth it.

i'm sensing a new playlist in the making

why hello folks!!

ya know those songs that were so popular back in the day? like, early 2000's? remember those? well, i recently heard one of those songs, and it sparked a revolution in my brain. and now i must list them.

BLUE (da ba dee) - Eiffel 65: this has literally been one of my favourite songs since i heard it almost 8 years ago. it makes me think of fun, carefree times. just hearing the chorus makes me smile. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68ugkg9RePc)

WALKING ON SUNSHINE - Aly & A.J.: one of those disney channel hits that you never quite get over. this song always makes me think of summer, friends, laughter, and good times. i want to jump up and down like a little kid when i hear this one. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gC8wZqnmdo)

A THOUSAND MILES - Vanessa Carlton: hearing that piano intro transports me to the spring and summer of 2002. long car rides with the windows down, hand riding on the air rushing by my face. listening to this song has always made me think of bright colours. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cwkej79U3ek)

HEY JULIET - LMNT: i don't know what it is about this song, but despite the terrible cheesiness of it, it's embedded in my brain as one of the ground breaking song of my childhood. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qVzXe6kr9rA)

ABSOLUTELY (Story of a Girl) - Nine Days: this is one of those song that i'll never forget. i would sing the chorus over and over again till my whole family hated me. classic. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3jx9Wl04sw)

COMPLICATED - Avril Lavigne: everyone's favourite skater girl. such a classic. i never could sing the chorus of this song though. i got fall, crawl, get, what? mixed up EVERY time i tried to sing it. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGXYAJoDWCk)

UNWELL - Matchbox 20: the almost haunting quality of this song has always intrigued me, even when i didn't understand what it meant. when i did realize what it was talking about, i fell in love all over again. this song is a piece of art that few have surpassed. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t_TL9YFemic)

THE HAMSTER DANCE - Hampton the Hamster: you knew THIS one was gunna be on the list. so many impromptu dance parties by myself in my room when it came on the radio. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3G5IXn0K7A)

ISLAND IN THE SUN - Weezer: one of the best summertime songs out there. reminds me of running around with friends on an summer evening (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0C3zgYW_FAM)

HANGING BY A MOMENT - Lifehouse: this song has been one of my favourites for a long, long time. the message, the tune, everything about this song makes me happy. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-SVDQ6A-Ps&feature=related)

HEY YA - OutKast: there are no words for this song. it's just so good. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWgvGjAhvIw)

WITH YOU - Jessica Simpson: hate on me if you want. i love this song. it makes me think happy thoughts (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWl7WjAtBME)

GET THE PARTY STARTED - P!nk: this song has such an infectious beat. and she talks about her mercedes. this one was also featured at my first paw sox game, ergo good memories. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mKUs6UoKspA&feature=related)

CHA CHA SLIDE - MC Lyte: i've danced to this song tons of times and it's still as great as it always was. memories associated = block parties. every year we wrapped it up with this song. so awesome http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSnvf7a8YMI

SOAK UP THE SUN - Sheryl Crow: definitely one of the best songs of this era. this is a timeless classic. which expired years ago. but i'll still love it. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIYiGA_rIls)


there's definitely a song i can't remember the name of, but rest assured, "i'll think of it"

this has been a pleasant trip down memory lane. what did i leave out? (for the record, pop has gone nowhere but down)


in other news, i'm completely obsessed with psych. it's kind of an issue.

falling

coming
it's coming
i can see it
so fast
like a blur
why?
why here?
why now?
everything was working out
perfectly
did this have to be?
it mattered
for the first time
it never had before
it seemed so real
it wasn't
it was a dream
this is reality
coming
reality is coming
in the form of a plane
speeding for me
speeding at me
to take me away
to steal life from me
when it was finally working
i guess the fates knew
i wasn't needed anymore
i did my job
my turn was done
but i would have liked to see
the results
the love
the family
now it's just her
i'm gone
he's gone
she's all that's left
for them
will they love her?
will they take care of her?
it's his job now
i can't
i'm gone
the plane took me
and now
now


now
it's over

for me

now
it's starting

for him

he has her
she is his now
i wanted this
and now i'm gone
because i wanted this


now
he cares

he likes her
he always loved her
but now he likes her
now he's ready
now he can care for her
she's in good hands
i leave her in good hands
but now i go
the plane is taking me
it's falling
falling
falling into



me

An urgent matter of great importance which must be discussed. now.

The human race has a special ability that is shared by no other species on earth. in fact, no other animal has even come close to achieving the heightened mental awareness that is needed to utilize this unique ability, yet mankind throws it around effortlessly. ladies and gentlemen, i am talking about talking. talking, speech, communication with words. as easy as it seems to us, this trait is limited to homosapiens alone, out of the millions of other species that occupy this planet. this truly is a gift.

within this ability, this gift, there are other gifts. the gift of gab, the gift of easily speaking in public, the gift of always knowing the right thing to say. however, there is one gift that stands out above all others; the gift of quotation.

often also referred to as a superpower, (citation needed) quoting is, according to merriam-webster's dictionary, "to speak or write (a passage) from another usually with credit acknowledgment or to repeat a passage from especially in substantiation or illustration". (merriam-webster.com) the next definition down says, "a gift, or superpower, possessed only by the most evolved, trained, brilliant, successful, and attractive of the human race". (citation needed) i use these definitions to give you a small background on the art that is quoting.

in my lifetime, i have been blessed to know many who had this ability. for instance, my entire immediate family has this gift. obviously, it differs from person to person, and some are more gifted than others, but the fact remains. i am blessed enough to be profoundly gifted in this arena and have the pleasure of knowing several others who share my rare ability. i have seen people take quotations from out of the blue that directly relate to the topic at hand. i have seen people who's talent is so intense, when they hear a quote from something that they're only heard or read once, they are able to repeat it back perfectly. word for word. it is remarkable my friends, truly remarkable.

as fascinating and powerful as this gift (translated in some languages as "superpower") is, it is also often time a burden. the most most "skillful-in-quotation" (McLernon, " 'I'll be back': the Gift of Quotation" 112) minds will sometimes labour for hours to perfectly recreate and repeat a quote. in doing so, these heroes of the field are making the world safer, funnier, and more accurate. now sit back, relax, and let your mind be free as you follow this link to famous quotes with i was too lazy to write out myself.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120917/quotes



"Quoting" http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/quoting 2010. Web. accessed April 8, 2010

McLernon, Siobhan G. 'I'll be back': the Gift of Quotation. Attleboro: Efeetastic and Poacherific Publishers, 2011

my Jesus is the king of kings, the lords of lords.
my Jesus is a humble servant, a willing slave
my Jesus has power unimaginable and unmatchable
my Jesus is a lowly craftsman in a poor town
my Jesus created the world and everything in it
my Jesus never left his home country
my Jesus calmed a stormy, raging sea
my Jesus was weary at day's end
my Jesus lives where streets are gold
my Jesus has no possessions to his name
my Jesus is infinite, he has no end
my Jesus died when he was 33
my Jesus made the majestic heavens
my Jesus subdued and conquered hell
my Jesus is God
my Jesus is man
my Jesus is real